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Daisy, Daisy... [ Mar 30 2006 ] [ mood | blank ] [ music | "Restaining Order Blues," EElS ] Shika, those daisies on your windowsill were from me. I dunno, I was just out walking last night (or this morning; I was a little fuzzy on the time, but insomnia hit me kinda mercilessly), and I thought some daisies might cheer you up. This whole…these last couple months…they haven’t been too kind to either of us, and I’m sorry for it. Someone wiser than me might cite them as growing pains for us both---needed pain or some bullshit like that. Maybe we’ll look back at this when we’re older, and we’ll laugh together. Maybe. Hopefully. I hope we’re still friends in the future…that you haven’t gotten sick of me by the time we make it to adulthood. So yeah. The flowers are a little weird, I agree, but I was a little ‘woooo’ on lack of sleep, and the fact that spring is coming hit me all of the sudden. I felt like sharing, ‘cause spring’s all about new beginnings and shit…it seemed sort of poetic at the time, okay? Eleven weeks left until summer vacation and counting. I want to go to the beach for my birthday, which is in another month , and I’m only saying this because I want you to remember this year, Shikamaru. Pleeeeeeeeeease. read(1)post

happy is a yuppie word [ Mar 10 2006 ] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | "Happy is a Yuppie Word," Switchfoot ] One more anniversary, survived. *sighs and waves a tiny flag* Thanks, Shikamaru. I guess I can't even hide off on my own properly...I'm too fat and happy to be an emo kid, huh? *grins wobbily* Thanks for pulling me out of the March 9th funk, buddy. ( LOG: Chouji and Shika: Shit Anniversary ) read(1)post

an anniversary of sorts [ Mar 9 2006 ] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | "Haiku," Tally Hall ] Well…that makes it three years today, doesn’t it? Huh. Never thought I’d make it this far. Life’s funny like that. …I’m not going to be in classes today. If you really, really need to get a hold of me, the cell phone will be on vibrate. Don’t worry about me---seriously! I’m fine, I just want to go…be by myself for a little while. Take a walk or something, I guess. See you all at school tomorrow. read(2)post

thar he blows~ [ Mar 6 2006 ] [ mood | cheeeeeeem ] [ music | "Be Yourself," Audioslave ] I need to get my wisdom teeth pulled. I won't be able to eat solid foods for like a week. WOE. ( that big long meme thing that everyone else has done... ) read(4)post

A guy my size shouldn't bounce like this... [ Feb 28 2006 ] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | "I Came As a Rat," Modest Mouse ] I have been in the weirdest mood the last two or three weeks. I’ve been, like, happy. For no real reason. I’ve just been jumping up and down, and chipper, and---spouting happy gibberish, I know. It’s been nuts. Shikamaru and I have kinda gotten into a habit of poke-bicker-wrestle-yell-in-Chinese/Japanese, which has been fun, if not a little odd. *grins crookedly* Man, we haven’t talked in Chinese or Japanese since we were kids. Our parents taught us Japanese, and Shika’s mom taught us Chinese---by the time we were ten, we were fluent in both. *laughs*. We used to call it our ‘secret code’. Kept the teachers off our back when we were whispering in class, that’s for damn sure. I HAVE ENERGY. I WANT TO GO DO SOMETHING! Oh. I just remembered I have to make up that Chemistry lab. Shit man, did that kill my mood D:. Hey Naruto, Shikamaru, you guys need to make that up too, don't you? ( LOG: Chouji and Shikamaru: It looks like a bunny, dammit. ) read(21)post

Ahaha. Um. *blush* [ Feb 21 2006 ] [ mood | embarrassed ] [ music | Something by Modest Mouse. ] Shikamaru? That, um, “comparison” thing? Let’s never speak of it again. Like, ever. I say we find new ways to assure you you’re “manly enough”, because---because yeah. That was a little much for me. I finished your hat, by the way. I think it’s sweet. Very green. Very manly. Even the pompom is excessively masculine. Just be yourself, buddy. I don’t think anyone cares about that either way. It’s you I like, if that’s any consolation. It probably isn’t, but still. I think the same is true for ‘her’. ((Warnings: boys being boys and genitalia jokes. Tell me someone gets the thing with the hat. Please. I don’t want to feel like that much of a geek. I don’t watch too much of the Sci-Fi channel, I swear D:)) ( LOG: Chouji and Shikamaru: If I show you mine, you show me yours ) read(9)post

My Valentine's Day~ [ Feb 17 2006 ] [ mood | tummyache DX ] [ music | "Butterfly Kiss," Art-School ] This last week, I’ve been on a total happy high. Up until last night, I was in an illogically good mood (blame V-day)---then Shikamaru killed my good mood, and now I’ve got a stomachache that won’t let up. Auuuuuuugh my innards feel like they’re eating me alive D:. I need to stop stressing about shit. But Valentine’s Day…Valentine’s Day had to have been the best holiday ever. Better than Easter. Better than Halloween. Better than Thanksgiving, even. Seriously. Whoever decided that chocolate and girls should go together is an abso-fucking-lute genius---though that just might be my stomach talking, I don’t know. Still. True genius. And I know this post is going to get me roasted by everyone who didn’t have the Valentine’s Day kisses I had. Please refrain from throwing things at me---the fat kid had a good day, so let’s not ruin it for him, hmm? ( Private to Ino ) ((Warnings: Nekkid Ino-ness, kissing, and one entirely too happy Chouji XD)) ( LOG: Ino and Chouji: Sweeter than strawberries? ) read(2)post

MEME D: [ Feb 13 2006 ] [ mood | mellow ] [ music | "Chloe," Art-School ] Tomorrow's the big day. I'm probably not going to be able to sleep tonight. ...yeah. ( THE LONGEST MEME EVER D: ) read(5)post

KILL ME. PLEASE. PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE. [ Feb 7 2006 ] [ mood | infuriated ] [ music | "Boulevard of Broken Dreams [Remix w/ Dream On]," Greenday ] I hate my life. And my brother. Or maybe just my brother. Or maybe my sex drive. ...no. I like my hormones. So I hate my brother. A lot. ... I'm so, so, so, so sorry, Ino. ((warnings: PWP, nekkidness, and one ass of a brother played by the multitalented Temi-mun)) ( LOG: Chouji, Ino, and Chouichi: It's called interrupted coitus ) read(5)post

free and clear? [ Jan 29 2006 ] [ mood | moody ] [ music | "Tiny Vessels," Death Cab for Cutie ] FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEDOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM! ♥ I'm out of the hospital, and back on my feet. The only downside now is my new diet... Things I can’t have in my diet anymore: Caffeine (no coffee, no caffeinated tea, no Bawls. BAWLS. I CAN’T DRINK BAWLS.) Alcohol (this I’m happy to give up) Cigarettes (not that I smoked anyways) High sodium foods (this one I’m ignoring. I can’t survive without chips.) Basically, everything good in the world that isn’t very good for you. Had sex been on the list, I think I might’ve just thrown in the towel and said screw it, living’s not worth it. But ehee…sex is still on the ‘approved’ list @^_____^@. Doc says I need to drop my BMI, too, because I’m pretty firmly overweight. Great. I have to start working out. I’ve been ninja’ing my way around Sarutobi Asuma, the wrestling coach, since Freshman year, though coach kept assuring me I’d be a champion in the heavyweight class…now I might actually have to start the sport. *sigh* ( LOG: Chouji and Shikamaru: If I should die before I wake… ) ( LOG: Chouji and Ino: Here in my room ) read(9)post

[ Jan 26 2006 ] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | "Breaking Free," High School Musical. STFU ] First person to bring me a Asiago cheese bagel from Noah's wins my undying and eternal devotion. If I were more attractive, I'd whore myself out for a bagel, but alas, I must beg/barter/steal instead. The food here is SO BAD. Even I can barely keep it down, and I have a stomach of steel, right? The topper: they don't get the Sci-Fi channel. It's no wonder most people die in hospitals. I was so bored yesterday, I went on a meme spree. ( I NEED SCI-FI OR MY BRAIN WILL EXPLODE. DANIEL JACKSON, LET ME ASCEND ;_; ) read(5)post

I'm okay, I promise [ Jan 24 2006 ] [ mood | drained ] [ music | Asterisk, Orange Range ] Well, fuck. Things have caught up to me, finally. Drinking, not sleeping, and overstressing is bad for anyone, but it was enough to push me off the edge, medically. I’ve always known that my old ticker’s not too good. I never went to the doctors about it for two key reasons: I didn’t think it was that bad, and I hate doctors/hospitals with a passion. But… Ever heard of heart arrhythmia? Yeah, that’s me. My heart’s gimp. …usually, only old people have arrhythmias, but when it’s congenital… Anyway. I had a little episode, I passed out, and Shikamaru called 911 for me. That makes it---what---the third time he’s saved my life? Ehhhhh. Man, Shika, you need to stop saving my ass, because I’m not sure what I can do to make it up to you. I’m in for observation right now, and they’re going to put me on pills. I’m going to be okay. Really. Yes, Ino, I’m talking to you. I’m eating, I can have visitors---hell, at the moment, I’m sitting up, typing on my laptop, and wearing my Jayne hat just because it makes the nurses giggle. I’m just…hooked up to a lot of shit at the moment…as things go, it could have turned out a hell of a lot worse. Read the sub-header describing “sudden death”. That got to me a little, yeah… ( LOG: Chouji and Shikamaru: Caring a little too much… ) read(12)post

the fat kid would like to apologize [ Jan 22 2006 ] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | "A Rush of Blood to the Head," Coldplay ] I have been watching entirely too much TV. I'm glad that people are talking to me again (or vice versa), because one more box set of Sci-Fi movies might've given me permanent brain damage. ( Private to Shikamaru and Ino: ) ( Private to Temari: ) ( Private to Chouza: ) ( LOG: Chouji, Temari, Chouza, Shikamaru: Dr. Phil kicks Akimichi Ass ) ( LOG: Chouji and Shikamaru: Putting things back together ) read(7)post

A classic retold [ Jan 15 2006 ] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | "Tear You Apart," She Wants Revenge ] Hey Shika, I found a movie for you to go see! *snorts* Hey Ino, Chouichi and Dad are going out tomorrow to help Big Bro get a job. Come over and see me, maybe? read(4)post

my girl [ Jan 13 2006 ] [ mood | ...a little better ] [ music | "The Scientist," Coldplay ] Things are looking...up. I'm sorry I haven't been myself these last couple of days. I know I've said and done things that have hurt others, not to mention myself. No, I haven't tried to kill myself. Don't be an ass, Shikamaru. I tried it once when I was thirteen and didn't like it. I decided to quit. Death attempts aren't good for one's health, and... ...and I'm realizing more and more that there's people that need me. Ino. I can't apologize enough, or the right ways. Just know that---that I meant what I said, okay? I love you, and I'm not giving up easily now. I can't really change the way I look. I'm big boned. I can't really change the way that I talk, or the fact that I'm a little overemotional...and...knowing that you accept that...that's big for me. Thanks. ( LOG: Chouji and Ino: Wednesdays are made for heartbreak ) ( LOG: Chouji and Ino: Lucky Friday the thirteenth ) read(3)post

[ Jan 12 2006 ] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | "Perfect Situation," Weezer ] You know what I hate more than being drunk? Being alone. I picked up the phone this morning and half-dialed Shikamaru's number before I forgot I wasn't talking to him. I walked to pick up Ino from cheerleading before I forgot I wasn't talking to her, either. It's really hard to live when you've built your life on others. Dad...I'm sorry about the sake. I think I'd like it better if you yelled at me...just being 'disappointed in me' is killing me... ( EDIT: Took that meme, sober this time. ) Perfect Situation ( lyrics ) read(4)post

MEMEME [ Jan 10 2006 ] ( A really effed up meme. ) read(9)post

At least the pasta loves me. [ Jan 9 2006 ] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | "Perfect Situation," Weezer ] I learned today that it’s physically impossible to OD off of carbohydrates. Drug of choice: pasta. My angst is no better, but now I’ve got a terrific stomachache to go with it. I want to roll into bed and never get up again. Dad wouldn't let me keep the phone off the hook, so Shikamaru keeps trying to call. So does Ino…but I’m just letting the phone ring until the answering machine picks up. He sounds sober on the tape. Sorry, too. Time after time, I keep staring down at the receiver, wanting to pick it up and---and yell at him, or slam it back down so that he just hears the empty dial tone, but I can’t force myself to do it. My fist still aches from when I punched him. I don’t want to forgive him, and I hate myself for it. Goddammit. Ino...I--- Shit, I don't even know what to say. Even if you were drunk, I know you remember what happened. You saw what I did, and---and isn't that enough to deserve a goodbye? I think I killed everything...everything between us...with that... read(15)post

Sorry. [ Jan 8 2006 ] [ mood | melancholy ] [ music | Chouichi's stolen CDs ] Kiba, Naruto, Hinata et all: I'm sorry for ruining the party last night. I'm not sorry for what I did; just for the timing. Don't bother calling. The phone's off the hook and I'm on the roof with all of Chouichi's CDs. ( Private to Shikamaru ) ( Private to Ino ) Modest Mouse - Satin In A Coffin ( Lyrics ) read(27)post

Music no-nos [ Jan 5 2006 ] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | NOT "F*** Her Gently," Tenacious D ] Why have I been so tired, lately? Dad thinks I'm sick again...I'm thinking it's more along the lines of depression. I do have a nasty cough that's one part flu and two parts cold, though, so I've made myself good friends with the cold medicine. Seriously, I must be some kind of wimp that I take one dose of the stuff the doctor prescribed, and not only do I fall to sleep within ten minutes, I sleep for twelve hours straight. I put my ipod on, thinking that I could listen to some music before I went to sleep, but...um...I passed out with it on. I listened to "F*** Her Gently" for twelve hours, and didn't wake up once When I did wake up again, I felt like I had a hangover... I'm so blaming the weird-ass wet dream on Tenacious D. It's ALL the music's fault. *sigh* So, party on Saturday, right? I'm looking foreward to it. Kind of. Until then, you can find me on the couch, in my Thumper pajama pants that Dad got me because none of my other ones fit anymore (too loose, wtf T_T). I'll probably be eating, because damn if that doesn't make me feel better. ...I don't like my waistband this slack. (( Shikamaru and Chouji ficcage for NHS2)) read(1)post

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